Baobei Stewy's Shrine

I have cleared a shelve on my bookcase as a shrine for my Baobei. I want to decorate it but I don't have time yet. At the moment, I have his urn there on top of a porcelain platter, a fairy guarding it and some bunny friends and a porcelain pumpkin. I also put his x-ray on the bottom covered with green felt.





















I am planning to embroider a meadow scene for the back of the shrine so that it will be a happy scene of his effigy in the middle of a meadow. I will take a photo when it is complete.

It is very coincidental because my cousin and I saw one of those 'egg machine' where you put $1 or $2 in and turn a knob and out comes a plastic 'egg' that has a surprise inside. This machine specialises in plastic animals and there were rabbits too. So I said lets try 2 times. I wanna get the rabbit. And I got it on my second try!! Very rare actually!! HAHA!! We were so happy we were jumping around in the mall.

Also coincidental is the fact that I got a white rabbit with dark brown spots. I immediately thought of Sorbet, the bunny I wanted to adopt but did not get. And I told my cousin. Hey I din get the real one so they gave me a doll instead. HAHA!!

A good friend Yu also contributed to the Bunny Friends by giving me a porcelain brown bunny.

Thanks to all!!

Backlog - 7th December 2008 - My Bday

A little backlogging here. Photos from my bday this year. Actually I dun really like to celebrate bdays coz I dun think its anything special. This is also the first celebration after Baobei's passing so actually I dun have the mood to celebrate either. And this year I almost had my wish of not celebrating as I went with my family to the Henderson Wave.

I was gonna go to a friend's place to celebrate her daughter's bday when she called and say "Where are you?? I bought a cake for you and you can cut it with my daughter."

I was like... NO WAY!! I DUN WANT YOUR RELATIVES AND FRIENDS SINGING FOR ME!! NO WAY!!! So she asked me to go and get the cake back home and we had a sing song cut cake thing at home...

Floating white rubber rings...

No!! No!! I did not go swimming and used white rubber floats neither did I rescue some drowning person at sea.

I was refering to the rubber bands around my braces. I just went for tightening on 18 December. Usually they give me transparent rubber band. This time the nurse asked me what colour I want. I said since mine is ceramics, I guess it will be white. And she gave me really white bands!! They are so obvious!! Looks like they are floating around my mouth!!! The nurse is new and I did not asked... So what can I say... Here they are...

It is so weird not to mention ugly and unflattering to show my whole face with my teeth exposed at close range so I have cropped the pic.

Stew... Stew... Who is Who??

I made this needle felted miniature Stew shortly before his passing... I did not plan it but now its like a final remembrance for me and also something to decorate his Shrine with.


























You can see that he is a poser and lets me take photos of him however I want to. There are cuter ones which I am sure I will use in future on this blog.

The funny thing is, my grandma kinda just found out I brought his ashes home yesterday. I dunno how come she did not noticed it on the shelf since she goes into my room everyday. She began shouting about me bringing 'dirty' things home etc which made me really angry.

Actually I dun believe in a next life or in heaven. I believe in evolution. To me, a living being is just a corpse after death and ash after cremation. Thats all. Nothing magical. To say that my Baby has gone to Bunny Heaven is just to make myself feel better thats all. I believe that the only eternity in this world lives in our memories. Heaven only resides in our mind.

I hope that his ashes will still be there when I get home today or I will be very very angry and probably not speak to her for the rest of her life. Or mine. My parents think that actually I do not have to bring his ashes home. Yeah that is true. I dun need to but I want to. Who knows one day I will be rich and will be able to afford LifeGems. Then I will make my Baby into diamonds. That is also for eternity...

Presenting... Stew Baobei Soft Toy

I have finally finished the Stew Baobei soft toy. Actually it is already completed for a few weeks but I cannot get the eye right. After putting in the eye with lid from bearycheap, it still looks scary. And Meimei decided to bite the lids off as well so I took it out. So in the end, after stitching and un-stitching for 5 times, I decided to just put in the Alive Baby eye from bearycheap. Den I think that it is sewn too low, so I took it out again and sewed it higher and viola!! Baobei is done. I don't think it looks 100% like him of course. Its still a soft toy but Meimei seems ok with the new version and likes to lie on him and lick him.

Disappointed... But... Be Constructive

I got an email yesterday that says that Sorbet's parents has decided to keep him. I am quite disappointed but happy as well. I hope that they will take care of him very well. Jacelyn from HRSS let on that they will have some new adoptables soon. Jojo and Orange. Since I want to adopt a boy, I guess it will not be Jojo. Maybe Orange will be a boy. Actually there quite a few adoptables on the site but some are lionheads. Cute but also heavy fur shedders. I think my grandma will kill me if I get them. Some needs to be adopted in a pair which is not suitable as well. WAHAHA!! Wanna adopt yet wanna choose...

In view of this small 'hiccup', I can take the time to think and to observe Meimei again to see if she really needs a new companion although I think the answer will be yes... Meanwhile I should really complete the things that I have been sitting on which I must complete soon. The list goes like this...

DECEMBER TO DO LIST
1. BTHN layout (official job)
2. Zara's Taggie Blanket (which I must send to US)
3. Change eye of the Baobei soft toy (looks like gremlins now)
4. Decorate Baobei's 'shrine' (needs embroidery and felting plus constructin)
5. Learn the mod podge silk screen technique and make labels (owe Aaron and explanation)
6. Make panda soft toy (Mandy's belated bday gift)
7. Make clutches that I owe to Nafa friends (belated bday for very long already it can be xmas gift now)
8. Make felt brooches (was gonna upload on Etsy but sidetracked by Baobei's passing)
9. Make bbb website
10. Make travel cases for SLH sisters (belated bday again!!)

SO MANY THINGS TO DO FOR DECEMBER!!! Die... Die... Die... And so many photos to be uploaded to the blog as well.

1 WEEK

Let me start with the vege I was planting... This photo was taken 1 week plus after sowing the seeds. Xiaobaicai is the most productive and fastest growing. At that time I was hoping that the Dandelion will sprout. I got the seeds online from USA and till this day have not succeeded in getting a single Dandelion yet. They are suppose to be good for bunnies so I was crossing my fingers. In any case I think only Baobei will want to eat it as he is a glutton. Meimei is more picky preferring the normal veges. She will probably only eat the Xiao Bai Cai.

3 WEEKS

This is taken 3 weeks plus after sowing. The Xiao Bai Cai has grown quite tall. Also I suspect that a Dandelion is growing!! Waiting to see if it is indeed the ever elusive Dandelion which is suppose to be a self seeding weed!!





A few days after this photo is taken, my grandma destroyed the garden and replanted all my Xiao Bai Cai. Of course killing the suspected Dandelion in the process as she did not see it there. I was so angry I shouted at her. I feel guilty after that but I was really angry. I have waited for years to get the Dandelion and it was killed... Sigh...

Of course after this the unfortunate passing of Baobei happened and I neglected to take anymore photos. I will upload the photos I took last night tonight.

UPDATE – WEEK 8

This should be 8 weeks after planting. I have stopped counting after Baobei died. Dandelion is definitely dead too.

I was wrong about being ok...

It's been 3 weeks and 2 days since my baby left me. I thot I was ok already. Going to work... Going out with friends... Joking... Being the funny girl... But I am wrong... I don't know why last week I was ok. I did not think so much about Stew and I could look at his photos and videos without crying. But suddenly this week I am not ok. I have cried 3 times and almost cried nth times while looking at his photos or while thinking about him...

Morticia is not very well too. She still is angry with me and is always bored or lost. Its lucky that my cousin is on holiday and is at my house playing with her. But she is not drinking water and I have to syringe feed her twice a day before I go to work and when I come home. One day I decided not to syringe feed her but I still find pee in her potty. So is that ok?? I dun know... I even bought a new bottle to see if the old bottle is faulty. The first day when I got home, I find the water level lower and was very happy but I found out that the bottle was leaking. So I screwed it properly and the water I don't think is going down. Sigh...

She is also peeing on my mattress every other day!! One day she even peed on me!! While I was sleeping of course. But I don't understand why too... I have tried to rush home as soon as I am off work and try to play with her whenever I have time but she dun seems interested. I find her character changed as well. Last time she is very grumpy and does not like to be touched. Now she wants to be pet constantly and looks very sad if I am home late from work...


This is how it is with my Manja King and my Meimei. One loves to be pet but one growls when you first try to touch her. Haha!!

I have been looking at the HRSS website and am thinking if I should adopt a new friend for her. After going through the list, I find one boy who is really cute and his description sounds suitable. His name is Sorbet. I have tried to apply and see if I can adopt him but there is no news yet. Actually the process for adoption is not easy. I will first be screened to see if I am a suitable owner. The volunteers will probably come to my house to see if everything is in order and to see that I am indeed sincere in wanting to adopt and not just want to have him so that I can eat him or something. WAHAHA!!! If everything is ok den we will probaby introduce the bunnies to see if they are a match. If they like each other then I will succeed.

I feel guilty though for wanting to adopt so soon. I feel as though I have forgotten about Stew my baby, my Baobei... I don't know if Sorbet will be helping Morticia or me. I believe that there is space in my heart for another bunny but I don't think that after I get him I will forget Baobei and the happy times we had together. Or that I will stop missing him. So is it fair to Sorbet that I still have Baobei in my heart?? Is it fair to him that he has to fill in the place of Baobei in Meimei's heart?? I hope so...

Also my Meimei is already 6. If she has a long life and live to 8 or 10, it means that we have 2 to 4 years to go. Sorbet is only 1 year plus. Which means that when he is 3 or 5, he will the one left behind when Meimei joins Baobei... Is that fair to him... I don't know...