Monday, December 8, 2008

I was wrong about being ok...

It's been 3 weeks and 2 days since my baby left me. I thot I was ok already. Going to work... Going out with friends... Joking... Being the funny girl... But I am wrong... I don't know why last week I was ok. I did not think so much about Stew and I could look at his photos and videos without crying. But suddenly this week I am not ok. I have cried 3 times and almost cried nth times while looking at his photos or while thinking about him...

Morticia is not very well too. She still is angry with me and is always bored or lost. Its lucky that my cousin is on holiday and is at my house playing with her. But she is not drinking water and I have to syringe feed her twice a day before I go to work and when I come home. One day I decided not to syringe feed her but I still find pee in her potty. So is that ok?? I dun know... I even bought a new bottle to see if the old bottle is faulty. The first day when I got home, I find the water level lower and was very happy but I found out that the bottle was leaking. So I screwed it properly and the water I don't think is going down. Sigh...

She is also peeing on my mattress every other day!! One day she even peed on me!! While I was sleeping of course. But I don't understand why too... I have tried to rush home as soon as I am off work and try to play with her whenever I have time but she dun seems interested. I find her character changed as well. Last time she is very grumpy and does not like to be touched. Now she wants to be pet constantly and looks very sad if I am home late from work...


This is how it is with my Manja King and my Meimei. One loves to be pet but one growls when you first try to touch her. Haha!!

I have been looking at the HRSS website and am thinking if I should adopt a new friend for her. After going through the list, I find one boy who is really cute and his description sounds suitable. His name is Sorbet. I have tried to apply and see if I can adopt him but there is no news yet. Actually the process for adoption is not easy. I will first be screened to see if I am a suitable owner. The volunteers will probably come to my house to see if everything is in order and to see that I am indeed sincere in wanting to adopt and not just want to have him so that I can eat him or something. WAHAHA!!! If everything is ok den we will probaby introduce the bunnies to see if they are a match. If they like each other then I will succeed.

I feel guilty though for wanting to adopt so soon. I feel as though I have forgotten about Stew my baby, my Baobei... I don't know if Sorbet will be helping Morticia or me. I believe that there is space in my heart for another bunny but I don't think that after I get him I will forget Baobei and the happy times we had together. Or that I will stop missing him. So is it fair to Sorbet that I still have Baobei in my heart?? Is it fair to him that he has to fill in the place of Baobei in Meimei's heart?? I hope so...

Also my Meimei is already 6. If she has a long life and live to 8 or 10, it means that we have 2 to 4 years to go. Sorbet is only 1 year plus. Which means that when he is 3 or 5, he will the one left behind when Meimei joins Baobei... Is that fair to him... I don't know...

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi there, there's nothing wrong with adopting a new one. I remembered when my sis-in-law Maltase passed away, the husky which was always with the maltase have the same problem too. She'll "wind" when everyone out of the house, mind it's non-stop. Out of no choice, we got to adopt another dog to keep her co. She's been alright since then. We still keep our luv for the Maltase in our heart BUT we also give the same amount of love to the new dog. Dun think too far as nobodys will know what will happen next & who will go first. Adoption is OK BUt i am against buying. We're also helping in term of adoption. So just stay happy & get ready to welcome the new-comer. Remember : we got ONE HEART with lots of LOVE for many things. So with the new comer, your luv for your baobei still remain. & you baobei is glad that you're moving-on to give your luv to another bunny.

Jo said...

i really dont know what to say..... but i'm sure things will be alright again. cheer up!

KIKILALA said...

Thanks Anonymous and Jo. I will try to cheer up and be happy. If not my parents will not let me get a new pet. And I really want Meimei to be happy too. :o)