Bonding Day 4

Today is the 4th day of the bunnies bonding. Yesterday night there was the usual scratching and biting through the cage. But I think it is improving. Each time they eye each other, they will fight. But after a few scratches, one or the other kinda got bored and will walk away. I found that Abraham dares to lie at the side or Morty's cage but Morty usually lie with her butt towards him I hope it means they are accepting each other. I will wait and see.

























Taken this morning before work and after some scratching.

Last night, Morty was very very manja. Sleeping with me all the way. So sweet. :op I think she knows now that I love her all along.

The Bond(ing) Disaster

This is the 3rd day since I brought the adopted bunny Abraham home and it has been a disaster!! The bunnies are fighting like mad and my girl is not happy at all with the new arrangement. :o(

It all started on Saturday. I brought my princess to the fosterer Jawskie's place to 'matchmake' my girl to 3 of his adoptables. Jawskie had posted an unmoderated adoption notice on HRSS's forum and I contacted him to see if we can arrange a meet-up for our bunnies. He had rescued them from an abandoned eco-centre where they had been living in very very horrible circumstances. We made an appointment and agreed that if it does not work out, I can bring the bunny back to Jawskie's place.

At first we put Morty with Toby for about 5 minutes. Everything was ok until the end when there was some foot thumping. Den we put Abraham with her. Everything seems fine. At last we put the final bunny Samson with her. There was also some foot thumping so in the end we felt that Abraham is the most promising. So we brought them home together. During the car ride, all was well but that was when all the happy times ended.

Immediately after they got home, they started fighting. Morty was super pissed about Abraham and started attacking him. Abraham attacked her back and all hell broke loose!! I separated them into 2 enclosures. Morty in her cage with Stewy doll and Abraham in an enclosure beside her. They started attacking each other through the grill and will stop if I scolded them. If Abraham walked pass her cage door she would rush over and try to attack him and vice versa.

















Once I climbed over into the enclosure and sayang Morty. Den I went to sayang Abraham but forgot to shut her door. She sneaked over through a small hole and attacked him biting a huge chunk of hair off his back!! That was when I decided to half Abraham's enclosure so that he will not pass her door.

After that starts the non-stop attacking through the grill and at night too. I had a sleepless night. On Sunday I was thinking if I had made the wrong choice as I find that Abraham is very jittery and there are war scars on him. When he is eating and I try to pat him, he will growl so I assume that food must be scarce where he was stranded at before. I proceeded to feed them and they started to fight through the grill again very very violently. I tried to stop them by scolding but no use. I put my hand in to stop them and WHAM!! My girl bit me by mistake. I let out a yelp and she stop halfway and stared at me. I scolded her and said 'Meimei!! You bit mummy's hands!! I'm bleeding now and it hurts!!' She look a bit embarrassed and quickly went to sit in a corner and looked at me with a 'I'm sorry' look (I know anyone reading this must think I am crazy for thinking this but I swear that rabbits understand humans and they know when they are at fault. They are very smart).

Ever since then they fight through the grill all the time. I sms Adeline and told her about it and she must be thinking 'I asked you to think properly first but you did not listen, now see what is happening' coz she did advised me before to think if this is what I want and what I think is best for Morty. But I see that she is so lonely everyday so I thought I should get her a new friend. She asked me how can I be so irresponsible and return a bunny I think is not suitable. If I already said I want to adopt den I have to accept it no matter good or bad. But... I have not committed. This is what has been agreed on with Jawskie. I think he knows that there might be problems too. He did not mention about the problems with the bunnies at first and only gave me his blog about them this morning when I asked him to described their characters and about the war scar and if they are solitary rabbits. I asked questions I should have asked on Saturday itself. After reading his blog, I find that Abraham is quite problematic and Toby has been returned before. After chatting with him on MSN, I found that he had expected Abraham to be returned too. After their scary past, they are quite traumatised.

I don't want to return him coz I think he is quite cute and I pity his past. But if he cannot get along with my girl, I will have to return him. Also I am afraid that when they start to share food, he might turn nasty when my girl goes and share his food with him. I know I am selfish but to me I feel that my girl is more important to me at the moment. AH!! I am a bad person!!!

My Sweet Princess

This post is dedicated to my Sweet Princess Morticia. When I bought her 6 years ago, it was so that she could accompany my Baobei. Because she has very bad attitude (growling and attacking anyone that goes near), everyone loves Baobei more than her. I must admit that I am guilty of the crime too. Everyday I would love and kiss my Baobei but will approach her with caution. Although I love and kiss her too, I know that deep in my heart I love Baobei more.

I think she can feel it too and instead of being nice, she decided that she will remain as she is. Snapping at everyone and peeing on my mattress now and again which made me angry at her. But I did not dislike her. After Baobei crossed the rainbow bridge, we suddenly find ourselves together. Just the two of us. We want to comfort each other but we do not know how.

I try to be very very gentle with her (not that I was very harsh with her before) but she seems to reject me. No matter what I do she gets angry. Whenever I try to sayang her she growls. Whenever I miss Baobei, she pisses on my mattress!! Which is once every 2 days and sometimes everyday!! And I get very angry (coz I will get scolding from my grandma who does the washing) but I don't want to blame her or scold her as I know that she must be very lonely too now that she is all alone. I want her to know that I love her too.

My next thought is to adopt or buy a new bunny to be her friend. After scouting around, I find some suitable bunnies and also was rejected a few times. But she seems to know too and I think she feels angry that I am looking for a new rabbit. Maybe she thinks that I do not love her and after getting the new rabbit I will push her aside. So she pisses on my mattress more!! Her record is 3 times per night and once even on me!!

After getting some encouragement from Adeline of HRSS, I tried to carry and 'groom' her which she seems to enjoy but she hates the process of being carried. Of me reaching into the cage to 'get' her. Also during her nightly run of the room, she would hide under the bed or be in her cage not coming out at all. Den one day I woke up in the middle of the night and realised that she was sleeping by the foot of my mattress. I was very surprised. I tried to get up in middle of the night again the next day and it was the same. Could it be that she wants to get to know me but she is shy thats why she chooses night time when the lights are off and when I am asleep?? I stroked her a few times and she ran away.

Of course by this time I really want to adopt or buy a new rabbit coz I think that she is very lonely thats why she keeps peeing on me but Adeline says that maybe she loves me very much so she wants to mark me as her property. That got me thinking... Could it be that whenever she knows I misses Baobei, she pees on my mattress to tell me that 'HEY!! You still got me!! Get a hang of yourself!!'. Could it be so that I will notice that I still got a baby girl.

Two days ago, on Christmas Eve, I decided to sleep with my head at the foot of the mattress instead. And in the middle of the night, I woke up to see her sitting beside my mattress staring at me!! My Princess!! I think she loves me!! I sayang her back and on Christmas night it happened again. This time I woke up to to kiss her and to stroke her. I think we understand each other more now. I will try my best and I hope that she does the same.

I am bringing her for matchmaking on Saturday. And I might even buy a bunny coz I fell in love with a poor boy in the shop who has been there for months and nobody wants him. I hope she can find a new friend but hope that she will still let me love her when her new friend is here.

Dry Dandelion

While at the pet shop one day to get the new bottle for Meimei, I saw this.

Dried Dandelion from Sanko Sun Farm which is rumoured to be good for the bunny liver. If only I knew... I would have bought it instead of trying to plant it and my Baobei might get a chance to eat it... :o(

Baobei Stewy's Shrine

I have cleared a shelve on my bookcase as a shrine for my Baobei. I want to decorate it but I don't have time yet. At the moment, I have his urn there on top of a porcelain platter, a fairy guarding it and some bunny friends and a porcelain pumpkin. I also put his x-ray on the bottom covered with green felt.





















I am planning to embroider a meadow scene for the back of the shrine so that it will be a happy scene of his effigy in the middle of a meadow. I will take a photo when it is complete.

It is very coincidental because my cousin and I saw one of those 'egg machine' where you put $1 or $2 in and turn a knob and out comes a plastic 'egg' that has a surprise inside. This machine specialises in plastic animals and there were rabbits too. So I said lets try 2 times. I wanna get the rabbit. And I got it on my second try!! Very rare actually!! HAHA!! We were so happy we were jumping around in the mall.

Also coincidental is the fact that I got a white rabbit with dark brown spots. I immediately thought of Sorbet, the bunny I wanted to adopt but did not get. And I told my cousin. Hey I din get the real one so they gave me a doll instead. HAHA!!

A good friend Yu also contributed to the Bunny Friends by giving me a porcelain brown bunny.

Thanks to all!!

Backlog - 7th December 2008 - My Bday

A little backlogging here. Photos from my bday this year. Actually I dun really like to celebrate bdays coz I dun think its anything special. This is also the first celebration after Baobei's passing so actually I dun have the mood to celebrate either. And this year I almost had my wish of not celebrating as I went with my family to the Henderson Wave.

I was gonna go to a friend's place to celebrate her daughter's bday when she called and say "Where are you?? I bought a cake for you and you can cut it with my daughter."

I was like... NO WAY!! I DUN WANT YOUR RELATIVES AND FRIENDS SINGING FOR ME!! NO WAY!!! So she asked me to go and get the cake back home and we had a sing song cut cake thing at home...

Floating white rubber rings...

No!! No!! I did not go swimming and used white rubber floats neither did I rescue some drowning person at sea.

I was refering to the rubber bands around my braces. I just went for tightening on 18 December. Usually they give me transparent rubber band. This time the nurse asked me what colour I want. I said since mine is ceramics, I guess it will be white. And she gave me really white bands!! They are so obvious!! Looks like they are floating around my mouth!!! The nurse is new and I did not asked... So what can I say... Here they are...

It is so weird not to mention ugly and unflattering to show my whole face with my teeth exposed at close range so I have cropped the pic.

Stew... Stew... Who is Who??

I made this needle felted miniature Stew shortly before his passing... I did not plan it but now its like a final remembrance for me and also something to decorate his Shrine with.


























You can see that he is a poser and lets me take photos of him however I want to. There are cuter ones which I am sure I will use in future on this blog.

The funny thing is, my grandma kinda just found out I brought his ashes home yesterday. I dunno how come she did not noticed it on the shelf since she goes into my room everyday. She began shouting about me bringing 'dirty' things home etc which made me really angry.

Actually I dun believe in a next life or in heaven. I believe in evolution. To me, a living being is just a corpse after death and ash after cremation. Thats all. Nothing magical. To say that my Baby has gone to Bunny Heaven is just to make myself feel better thats all. I believe that the only eternity in this world lives in our memories. Heaven only resides in our mind.

I hope that his ashes will still be there when I get home today or I will be very very angry and probably not speak to her for the rest of her life. Or mine. My parents think that actually I do not have to bring his ashes home. Yeah that is true. I dun need to but I want to. Who knows one day I will be rich and will be able to afford LifeGems. Then I will make my Baby into diamonds. That is also for eternity...

Presenting... Stew Baobei Soft Toy

I have finally finished the Stew Baobei soft toy. Actually it is already completed for a few weeks but I cannot get the eye right. After putting in the eye with lid from bearycheap, it still looks scary. And Meimei decided to bite the lids off as well so I took it out. So in the end, after stitching and un-stitching for 5 times, I decided to just put in the Alive Baby eye from bearycheap. Den I think that it is sewn too low, so I took it out again and sewed it higher and viola!! Baobei is done. I don't think it looks 100% like him of course. Its still a soft toy but Meimei seems ok with the new version and likes to lie on him and lick him.

Disappointed... But... Be Constructive

I got an email yesterday that says that Sorbet's parents has decided to keep him. I am quite disappointed but happy as well. I hope that they will take care of him very well. Jacelyn from HRSS let on that they will have some new adoptables soon. Jojo and Orange. Since I want to adopt a boy, I guess it will not be Jojo. Maybe Orange will be a boy. Actually there quite a few adoptables on the site but some are lionheads. Cute but also heavy fur shedders. I think my grandma will kill me if I get them. Some needs to be adopted in a pair which is not suitable as well. WAHAHA!! Wanna adopt yet wanna choose...

In view of this small 'hiccup', I can take the time to think and to observe Meimei again to see if she really needs a new companion although I think the answer will be yes... Meanwhile I should really complete the things that I have been sitting on which I must complete soon. The list goes like this...

DECEMBER TO DO LIST
1. BTHN layout (official job)
2. Zara's Taggie Blanket (which I must send to US)
3. Change eye of the Baobei soft toy (looks like gremlins now)
4. Decorate Baobei's 'shrine' (needs embroidery and felting plus constructin)
5. Learn the mod podge silk screen technique and make labels (owe Aaron and explanation)
6. Make panda soft toy (Mandy's belated bday gift)
7. Make clutches that I owe to Nafa friends (belated bday for very long already it can be xmas gift now)
8. Make felt brooches (was gonna upload on Etsy but sidetracked by Baobei's passing)
9. Make bbb website
10. Make travel cases for SLH sisters (belated bday again!!)

SO MANY THINGS TO DO FOR DECEMBER!!! Die... Die... Die... And so many photos to be uploaded to the blog as well.

1 WEEK

Let me start with the vege I was planting... This photo was taken 1 week plus after sowing the seeds. Xiaobaicai is the most productive and fastest growing. At that time I was hoping that the Dandelion will sprout. I got the seeds online from USA and till this day have not succeeded in getting a single Dandelion yet. They are suppose to be good for bunnies so I was crossing my fingers. In any case I think only Baobei will want to eat it as he is a glutton. Meimei is more picky preferring the normal veges. She will probably only eat the Xiao Bai Cai.

3 WEEKS

This is taken 3 weeks plus after sowing. The Xiao Bai Cai has grown quite tall. Also I suspect that a Dandelion is growing!! Waiting to see if it is indeed the ever elusive Dandelion which is suppose to be a self seeding weed!!





A few days after this photo is taken, my grandma destroyed the garden and replanted all my Xiao Bai Cai. Of course killing the suspected Dandelion in the process as she did not see it there. I was so angry I shouted at her. I feel guilty after that but I was really angry. I have waited for years to get the Dandelion and it was killed... Sigh...

Of course after this the unfortunate passing of Baobei happened and I neglected to take anymore photos. I will upload the photos I took last night tonight.

UPDATE – WEEK 8

This should be 8 weeks after planting. I have stopped counting after Baobei died. Dandelion is definitely dead too.

I was wrong about being ok...

It's been 3 weeks and 2 days since my baby left me. I thot I was ok already. Going to work... Going out with friends... Joking... Being the funny girl... But I am wrong... I don't know why last week I was ok. I did not think so much about Stew and I could look at his photos and videos without crying. But suddenly this week I am not ok. I have cried 3 times and almost cried nth times while looking at his photos or while thinking about him...

Morticia is not very well too. She still is angry with me and is always bored or lost. Its lucky that my cousin is on holiday and is at my house playing with her. But she is not drinking water and I have to syringe feed her twice a day before I go to work and when I come home. One day I decided not to syringe feed her but I still find pee in her potty. So is that ok?? I dun know... I even bought a new bottle to see if the old bottle is faulty. The first day when I got home, I find the water level lower and was very happy but I found out that the bottle was leaking. So I screwed it properly and the water I don't think is going down. Sigh...

She is also peeing on my mattress every other day!! One day she even peed on me!! While I was sleeping of course. But I don't understand why too... I have tried to rush home as soon as I am off work and try to play with her whenever I have time but she dun seems interested. I find her character changed as well. Last time she is very grumpy and does not like to be touched. Now she wants to be pet constantly and looks very sad if I am home late from work...


This is how it is with my Manja King and my Meimei. One loves to be pet but one growls when you first try to touch her. Haha!!

I have been looking at the HRSS website and am thinking if I should adopt a new friend for her. After going through the list, I find one boy who is really cute and his description sounds suitable. His name is Sorbet. I have tried to apply and see if I can adopt him but there is no news yet. Actually the process for adoption is not easy. I will first be screened to see if I am a suitable owner. The volunteers will probably come to my house to see if everything is in order and to see that I am indeed sincere in wanting to adopt and not just want to have him so that I can eat him or something. WAHAHA!!! If everything is ok den we will probaby introduce the bunnies to see if they are a match. If they like each other then I will succeed.

I feel guilty though for wanting to adopt so soon. I feel as though I have forgotten about Stew my baby, my Baobei... I don't know if Sorbet will be helping Morticia or me. I believe that there is space in my heart for another bunny but I don't think that after I get him I will forget Baobei and the happy times we had together. Or that I will stop missing him. So is it fair to Sorbet that I still have Baobei in my heart?? Is it fair to him that he has to fill in the place of Baobei in Meimei's heart?? I hope so...

Also my Meimei is already 6. If she has a long life and live to 8 or 10, it means that we have 2 to 4 years to go. Sorbet is only 1 year plus. Which means that when he is 3 or 5, he will the one left behind when Meimei joins Baobei... Is that fair to him... I don't know...

I miss my Baby waiting for me...

It's been a week and 2 days after my Baobei crossed the rainbow bridge. I can't believe how fast the wound heals. Although I miss him constantly and thinks about him every other hour, I feel ok now and do not cry constantly. I guess it is true that there is absolutely nobody you cannot live without.

Life has been boring without his cheeky looks and goofy antics. I miss how he waits for me to come home from work everyday at his cage door. Getting all excited for me to feed him and play with him. My Baobei the Manja King. Luckily I have taken many videos of him and I can watch them when I miss him.



Thank you to all my friends and relatives who had given me words of encouragement and have been there for me.

Now I rush home everyday to be with my Princess. She is really lonely and sulks everyday. I made a soft toy in the image of Baobei for her but his eyes is like a Gremlin!! So big and round!! He looks kinda scary at night. Haha!! So I decided to order some real looking eyes from this Australian site www.bearycheap.com. Their services was superb and I am now waiting for the eyes to arrive. I have assembled it for the time being for her first and will make adjustment with the new eyes as soon as possible. When the toy is fully assembled, I will post it here.

Princess is ok with her new companion because as the Queen of Morbidity (if there is such a word), I have been preparing myself for this day and have been keeping all his fur from our countless trip to the groomer. I used the fur that still has his smell on it to stuff the soft toy. She's not totally happy with it but she makes do.

Fly to Heaven, Angel

My baby... Goodbye...

I have been sitting on blogging for the longest time. I will wait for next time... I will wait till after finishing this book... Or show... It can wait till tmr... So many excuses until I promised that I will definitely do it this weekend. My excuses to not writing...

I have so many things to write about and I don't know which to start first. The exciting things I am going to do setting up my etsy shop... What kinda crafts I have done or planned... What vegetables I am currently planting... Our family trip to the park connectors which is suppose to happen today... My loveable bunnies and their silly antics... What kind of recipes I wanna try out... But... I did not expect my first blog to be something so heart wrenching... At least for me...

My Baby... My first child... My male bunny, Stew... Has left me suddenly yesterday night. On 15th November 2008 at about 9pm. He left me to be in Bunny Heaven. To be at a better place with no pain and no illness. If only I knew that his illness is so serious.

It all happened two weeks ago, he lost his appetite and started eating very little and has tiny tiny poo which is a bad sign. I sent him to the vet who diagnosed GI Stasis and gave me some medication to feed him twice a day. I did so religiously but after two weeks he still only eats very little so I brought him back to the vet for follow up treatment on Friday. We did an x-ray and blood test and find that there is some obstruction in his tummy and that he has bladder problems and this had led to liver problem (hepatic lipidosis). The doctor suggested that I bring him back everyday on Saturday. Sunday and Monday for further treatment and if by Monday he is still not well, he will be hospitalised at the clinic. I said ok. On Saturday morning, he refused to eat so I had to force feed him. I even went out a few times to get a suitable sryinge to feed him with and bought bananas, apples, wheatgrass and mint. All to mash up for easy feeding.

My dad, cousin and me proceed to forcefeed and he ate most of the stuff we gave and even peed and pooed small poos and we were very happy about it. I brought him to the vet for further treatment at 4pm and at 7pm when we got home, he was not himself. He tried to move but he was not able to lift his head. I quickly called a rabbit savvy friend who say maybe he has heatstroke because we did not go home straight but went to the supermarket to get veges and some grocery for him and everyone else. At 8.30pm I called the vet and she said it could be serious and we rushed him to the vet on emergency. It will cost me $200 but I am thinking it is ok. I have already spent about $250 on the other bills so I thot what the heck as long as he gets better I don;t mind going without buying stuff for a long long time.

On the way to the vet in his carrier, he tried to move and I was soothing him with my hands inside the carrier. At his last moments, he struggled up as his face was facing the back of the carrier. He turned over, came to me, lied on my arms and stomach. There was a little convulsion and he is gone...

My Baby... Even in his last moments he wants to comfort me. To love me and let me love him till the end. I called his name because deep in my heart I know he is gone but I do not want to accept it. I want to think that he has fainted and will be ok at the vet. I called his name but there is no response and I could feel that there is no hearbeat. I started to cry and my cousin cried too.

I have thought about this many times, how will I feel if one day I woke up and find his body cold and hard in his cage or on the floor. How will I feel. Can I accept it? I have played this scene many times over in my head. I am ready for it. He is already 6 and a half years old. Something like old age for rabbits. I told myself that we have many happy memories. He is lucky to be my pet and I have treated him as well as can be. I told myself that if someone else had bought him at the pet shop that day, he could have been abandoned or killed. He had a good life and when it is time to go, I will let him go. I will be comforted that I have given a rabbit a chance for a good life and I have done my job very well. But when it really happened...

I cannot accept it. I want him back. I cannot let him go... Not yet. I know he is unwell but I did not think it is critical. He was still jumpy in the morning, refusing to get into the bag to go to the vet. So many what ifs came into my mind. What if I had sent him to the vet as soon as I got home and realised he is unwell. What if I have brought him straight home from the vet rather than going to the grocery store. What if I had send him to the vet 1 week after the first treatment rather than 2 weeks like the vet told me to. What if I had massaged him right after his death coz the vet asked me long has he passed, and started massaging him. Will I have prevented this. Will he have gotten better. I feel guilty yet relieved. Guilty for the thousand what ifs and relieved that at last he has left the suffering and have gone to a better place. If only he had exhibited more suffering instead of being his goofy self, I would have rushed him to the vet even in the middle of the night.

My Baby... He has not lived to eat the veges I have planted for him. I have planted before and this is the second time and it is also this time that I have planted parsley and dandelion (the ever elusive plant I have been trying to plant but never succeeding). He has not lived to participate the in the Christmas party we planned this year. Every year there will be extra strawberries for him. He will never use the bag I made to carry him so that it is easier to force feed him without him falling. My baby... Even in his last moments he comforted me. He wants to tell me that he loves me and that I have done what I can by struggling and lying in my arms... By saving further medical bills which he knows I will struggle to pay.

But my Baby... Mummy don't mind... Mummy just want you to be healthy and happy. Mummy loves you more than anything else even more than herself. Mummy wish that you will happy in Bunny Heaven. That you will be healthy and content and that there will be someone to take care of you there. Bye bye my Baby...




















My Baby the first week after I got him


















My Baby at last. I am hugging his body goodbye. I know it is morbid but I cannot let go. I don't want to let him be alone in the clinic, in the fridge where he waits to be taken for cremation on Monday. Mummy love you Baobei.

Although I cannot accept it yet... I am surprised how fast logic thinking takes over from my emotions... Even before reaching the clinic, before the vet confirms that my Baby is indeed gone, I begin to plan how I must comfort my other rabbit Morticia when I get home. She has been Stew's companion ever since I got her and she will feel very lost without him. She is very angry I did not bring him back and has been circling the room to find him at night. I will take care of you better my princess. Mummy promise you. Please don't be angry with Mummy. Mummy tried her best but she could not save korkor... I'm sorry...

50 Things about Me

My good friend Blissful Taitai (www.blabberingjo.blogspot.com) did a '100 things about me' list on her blog which inpired me so much that I think I should introduce myself with a list. I can't come up with 100 things about myself so I will settle for 50.

1. I was born in Malaysia and lived there till I was 12, came to Singapore to study and work till I was 20, went to Australia to study den came back to work in Singapore.
2. I can adapt to life in any place fairly quickly so I feel attached to all the places that I have been to but I don't feel at home anywhere.
3. I wanted to be a Fashion Designer but studied Graphics Design instead.
4. I live in my own world most of the time.
5. I am very forgetful. I can't really remember what happened last week unless I think very hard.
6. I am always late. But strangely I am good in meeting deadlines.
7. I can keep secrets very well. Maybe because I forget easily.
8. I eat really slow unless when I am in a rush.
9. I can leave my half finished meal as it is and come back to it a few hours later.
10. I can eat anything with cheese and ketchup.
11. I hate chewy food like glutinous rice balls, jelly, gum and fishball.
12. I hate corn. The smell gives me a headache.
13. I used to feed my breakfast to my dog or flush it down the toilet when I was young.
14. I have a very high tolerance for pain.
15. I have a tattoo.
16. I would like to get a tongue stud but I must be willing to give up my legs which my mom will break first.
17. I am afraid of spiders, sharks and heights.
18. I believe I have seen a UFO.
19. I'm a sucker for multi function gadgets.
20. I would rather die than be trapped in the lift with strangers.
21. I have kissed a snake and hugged a hyena.
22. I can blank my mind and think of nothing.
23. I read everything including road signs and car plate numbers when I am travelling and my mind is not blank.
24. I am good in form recognition.
25. I learnt to read chinese when I was 12. I can read but I can't write.
26. My dreams are in colour.
27. My favourite colour is green but I hate grey.
28. I don't feel any heartache when my possessions is lost or spoilt.
29. I can learn to cook or do craft from instruction books.
30. I lose interest in making something the moment I learn how to do it.
31. I would like to support a child from world vision one day.
32. I have never had a boyfriend before.
33. I am quite messy but I know where everything is.
34. I am a satanist.
35. I don't really bother about things that doesn't concern me.
36. I am very close to my family.
37. My older brother was adopted but we are very close.
38. I have great friends and I have known some for more than 15 years.
39. I am not good in keeping in contact.
40. I look goth in real person.
41. I sleep the moment I get on a plane.
42. I get asked for directions a lot.
43. I am so obsessed with ancient ruins I dream about them all the time. I must go to Peru before I die.
44. I have received umbrellas from strangers in Japan, Taiwan and Singapore when I was stuck in the rain. Maybe I looked helpless.
45. I drink coffee before I sleep.
46. I lose my appetite if I see someone talking with their mouth full.
47. I am not good in sports.
48. I only eat meat that has been dead for some time. No freshly slaughtered animals for me.
49. I am a closet groupie.
50. I live life one day at a time. I don't plan ahead.

There we go. 50 things about myself. I think I have gotten to know myself better after making this list. :)